Monday, December 24, 2018
We're All Innkeepers
Happy Holidays, Friends!
And just like that we're one day away from Christmas 2018. That means we're also one day plus a week away from 2019. It's become a tradition for me at the end of the year to write letters and blogs that draw some sort of parallel between our lives and this beloved holiday, and since I only have one other post to show for the past twelve months, here I am! Thanks for reading. :)
So, let's talk about this innkeeper guy... you may have heard of him. Mary and Joseph ride up to his inn, looking for a place to rest because Mary is super pregnant, and they've traveled all the way from Nazareth to pay their taxes. (Thanks, Caesar Augustus.)
Anyway, the inn is full, so the innkeeper sends them away, and we all cringe because you know that's the beginning of the worst Yelp review ever. At the same time, though, do we blame him? Isn't it supposed to be our goal to create something so popular, you sell out your inventory? Wasn't the innkeeper just an entrepreneur living by the capitalistic ideals of supply and demand?
I guess that's the reason why, with our very busy lives, I don't feel like using the innkeeper's story to "guiltify" us into taking on even more. Instead, I feel this story begs the question, "If our inns are full, what are they full of and why?"
If we operate our lives so completely sold out that we have no room for love, charity, or your run of the mill, life changing miracle, is it possible our "inns" might be emptier than we think?
What I'm trying to say is this year I found joy in making room as well as giving it away. I said "no" to a few things (maintaining a regularly updated blog, for example?), and that comes with consequences. But the good news is it made room for some stuff I tend to turn away, namely, "Creative Freedom, Conversation, and Community."
The even better news is this time of year has the magic to remind me how much room there can be, so there's no way I'd turn away the opportunity to share some love and say to each of you, "Thank you for making room for me."
With love, gratitude, and a few sugar cookies,
Jeffrey Scott Parsons
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
COMFY
One of the great dichotomies of modern life is...
...graduating from college with a performing arts degree, so you have to use words like "dichotomies" to make the degree feel worth it.
Kidding.
One of the true, great dichotomies of modern life is we're constantly being told and sold how to make our lives more comfortable while the most important moments in our lives remain anything but. Sounds like a good reason to tap dance, right? I thought so too. ;)
COMFY is a one man show I've created that, using all my favorite buzz words, is the most authentic, vulnerable, and rewarding project I've ever worked on. I'm not going to tell you specifically why because you gotta come to the show. Don't trust me? Here's a quote about my recent Los Angeles debut.
“Parsons is so sincere and so sweet and lovable that his time onstage is totally mesmerizing. Don’t miss him wherever he appears!” -Don Grigware, BroadwayWorld.comAlso, I sing and dance my butt off. Need more convincing? I'm now going to list a few other reasons why I'm proud of COMFY...
- It is unlike any other cabaret show I've ever seen, using dance and multimedia in a fresh, new way.
- It uses something very old school, like the "song and dance man" tradition I love so much, to explore the complexities of my very modern life.
- It's funny!
- It is written to be enjoyed by a diverse crowd of backgrounds, beliefs, and (gasp) political leanings, and by the end, I believe we all feel a lot closer.
I'm bringing the show to a town near you! Of course, I first gotta know where your towns might be... If you would like to see COMFY, drop me a line. I'll get my tap shoes there as soon as possible.
xoxo
JSP
(video by Mike Patton)
(video by Mike Patton)
Saturday, December 24, 2016
NOEL
As petty as it may sound, I find it painful when words don't fit in songs using their everyday pronunication. For example, adorable pop kitten Katy Perry's song "Unconditionally" is constructed in such a way that she sings both "uncondi-TION-ally" and "un-CON-ditionally," but never once with the emphasis on the right syllable. Feel free to check it out, but don't mention I sent you.
Meanwhile, on the complete opposite side of this pet peeve, one of the best-used words in music is one we hear a lot at the time of year: Noel. If you like, go listen to a quality recording of "The First Noel" and try not to be impressed by the ease with which that one word manages to rise and fall both reverently and majestically.
"Noel" is a French word borrowed by us English folk to mean "a Christmas carol," and hark the herald angels it was. I guarantee the musical ease of "The First Carol" would leave much to be desired. But the truth is "Noel" is even older than that and can be further traced to its Latin root "natalis," meaning "birth."
Now I know 2016 wasn't an easy year for a lot of us, and not in a Katy Perry song type way. In fact, as I think about some of the people that might read this, 2016 sucked pretty hard. (Sorry for the language, Grandma...)
To any of you that may be suffering, please know my heart and thoughts have been with you. I know pain is real, and I stand with you in it, knowing you'd do the same for me. Even when words don't quite fit the songs we're trying to sing, I believe there are always better days ahead, in the journey as much as the destination. The only requirement is we keep moving forward. May that be the gift we give ourselves this Christmas: the gift of moving forward.
And maybe one other... I invite you to take a moment this holiday season and sing "Noel." Not just because it's Christmas, and certainly not because it marks the end of 2016, but because it might be the birth of something new.
Happy Holiday,
Jeffrey Scott Parsons
Sunday, September 4, 2016
That One Time I Thought Like That Guy Running for President
I grew up in a town filled mostly with good "blue
collar" folk. Many families made livings in construction or farming. My
grandpa ran a successful livestock business for 50 years. My best friend's
family had a dairy. Others had family fruit stands supplied by their own
orchards. It was the community in which I was born and raised, and, despite my
love of sequined clogging costumes, I was always proud of it.
After I graduated high school, however, my hometown started
changing. Many of the farmers grew old and sold their land to real
estate developers. Soon, there were far fewer orchards, and in their places,
suburban communities with ironic names like, "The Orchards."
I was annoyed.
Some of it was because I have a general anger problem toward
people cutting down trees. (I blame Ferngully.) But in a more general sense, I was upset because I didn't like how
mowing down the farmland was changing my town.
I didn't like that now when it rained, the highway flooded because the mountainside had pavement instead of soil to absorb the
moisture.
I didn't like that with all the new homes on the city water
line, we could no longer wash the dishes and take a shower at the same time.
I didn't like that instead of the blue collar families I
mentioned earlier, I heard more people at church speak about how
"inspired" they were by poor people.
But maybe most of all, I didn't like that the great influx
of citizens had no idea who my family was. My grandpa helped build the church
many of them attended. My grandma was a member of the Daughters of the Utah
Pioneers. My mom played the organ at every funeral, ever. My father served on
town councils and committees responsible for flood prevention. Not to mention I
performed at the 4th of July pageant every year, people!!
I saw so much history around me, and none of the newbies
seemed to care one bit that without it, they probably wouldn't have moved
there.
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Upon witnessing the recent political platforms spreading
across these fine United States, I decided to take a long, hard look at what I
find so displeasing in the way many have begun talking about immigrants or
people different than themselves. Once I identified it, I looked within to see
if I have any ounce of that myself. What I found was what you just read.
The hard truth is when change is thrust upon you, especially
in an area where you feel ownership, like where you live, feelings of
powerlessness and frustration arise from dealing with the consequences of
decisions you had nothing to do with.
Similar feelings may result when parents announce baby #2 is
on the way, or when children are forced to share their toys with others.
The problem is we're adults.
While my resentment about my hometown was real, it certainly
wasn't meant to be literal. I don't want to keep people from populating the
city I grew up in simply because I was there first. That's childish. If
anything, my seniority only proves I can understand why others would want to
experience it for themselves.
Yes, that means there's change, and change isn't easy. There
are cultural shifts and new problems to solve. But that's when words like
"compromise" and "working together" come into play. You
know, the kind of stuff we learned in kindergarten.
As adults, we make these words happen by electing leaders to
help facilitate them. That's why I
hope my hometown officials can bring its citizens together, both old and new,
to compassionately ensure a high quality of life for everyone. Did my hometown grow too big too fast? Maybe. But for heaven's sake, nobody needs to ban or
kick anyone out, especially based on race, religion, or sexuality.
Comparatively speaking, I hope as a country we can elect
leaders that first recognize the complex and nuanced issue of when and how
individuals become US citizens. We can then hold those leaders accountable to
creating a pathway that ensures everyone the high quality of life that has
always made this country great.
It's not as easy as we'd prefer, but most things after
preschool haven't been.
It was surprisingly difficult for to me admit my biased feelings toward the
new neighbors, but I believe I've handled them like an adult. I invite everyone
in this homeland I love so dearly to do the same.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Power Sources: a New Year's Hi Def Resolution
At this point in our modern society, I think we all know where we get our power. We get it from the sun, a farm of wind turbines, and the little switches on our walls that turn the lights on and off.


Too bad everything in life isn't as simple as generating power for the very computer I sit behind. Ironic Note: generating power isn't simple, therefore everything IS that simple. #mindblown
The thing is, as we (and by we, I mean someone else) tries to figure out how to efficiently power our increasingly technological world, I believe we also need to monitor how we power ourselves. Same idea, different realm. Where do each of us get our personal power? From our faith? Maybe our loved ones. On a Friday night, maybe it's ice cream and a #7 from Mr. Chow's.
The answers really depend on a couple of factors: the person, the situation, and believe it or not, the trends. There are trends in personal power. It wasn't that long ago, for example, that Instagram followers didn't exist, let alone carry the weight of our self esteem.
Lately, however, the power trend that has most caught my attention is an unexpected one. "Persecution." Now you wouldn't think at first glance that "Persecution" would be a source of power. People are usually persecuted in order to feel the exact opposite of powerful. But that knowledge, and a more empathetic society, is bringing it into a new light.
Let me use myself as an example. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I have ancestors that literally walked and pushed handcarts across the United States to find a place where they could worship freely. I've spent every 24th of July since as a long as I can remember honoring those Utah pioneers that led to me being born where I was born and raised how I was raised.
As an adult, I keep the trials and persecutions of my ancestry like a badge of honor, and when I feel I need to take a stand, I take that badge out and pin it on my chest. I talk about how there was an extermination order against my people. Yes, that's "exterminate" like on a box of roach poison. In 1838, if you lived in Missouri, you were allowed to shoot a Mormon dead, and when the President of the United States was contacted about it, his official response was something like, "I feel bad, but it's an election year, and you guys are kinda weird."
Now if I'm being 100% honest with myself, the times I play this "persecution card," are usually when I'm trying to bring perspective to someone painting a stereotype that Mormons are squeaky clean, privileged white people that build sparkly temples and hate gays. Trust me; it's simply not true...except for the sparkly temple thing. #sequinsforever
Still, this is basically the current trend I'm talking about. People feel persecuted, which leads to outrage, which leads them to share their outrage, only then to be met by others that are so uncomfortable with it, they point out their persecution to level the playing field. It's a polarizing game of "My Life Sucks Just as Much as Yours."
So what if when met with the injustice of someone's experience, instead of leveling the playing field, I were to simply stop and look at them? After all, if I really have been persecuted, I would no doubt look at them and recognize myself.
That's why in 2016, I'm giving up "Persecution" as a power source. I will take lessons, not definitions, from my opposition in life. I will wear my ancestry with pride without viewing martyrdom as an achievement where both persecutor and believer are celebrated.
I will walk with a sense of unity, knowing "life's suckage" is something that makes us all the same, not what makes us competitive. When confronted by someone's injustice, I will give them empathy. When people find joy or outrage, I will not point to something else. And when I recognize my feelings begin to rise out of me, I will own them without making others do it for me.
This is what I'm calling my Hi-Def Resolution, a New Year's Resolution so crystal clear, it displays a picture of not only who I am but who I want to be. And that, my friends, is a little scary, but very powerful.
:)
Friday, November 13, 2015
My Brake Down
Recently I took a bus to the evil stepmother queen of all airports: LAX.
It seemed to me the responsible choice, what with morning traffic polluting the route and airport parking costing as much as bailing out your car when you park in a tow away zone. (Or so I've heard...)
Unfortunately, if LAX is an evil queen, then the bus turned out to be a poisoned apple.
It's not like the bus wasn't nice. It had tall, plush seats, high def TV monitors scattered throughout the interior, and best of all, a friendly driver at its helm WHO WANTED TO KILL ME.
Okay, I don't actually know if he wanted to kill me. And honestly, I can't even say whether or not he was an unsafe driver. All I know is on that warm California morning I may have been driven to LAX (and arrived late, by the way), but I was also driven to what I've named, "My Brake Down."
It all started because I'm pretty sure the bus had new brakes. Which, by the way, is fantastic! I'm thrilled safety would be a high priority for this company transporting my fragile body. But if that was the case, I would have appreciated a brief announcement of warning, like when tanning salons post a sign announcing their beds have brand new bulbs. (Or so I've heard...)
Unfortunately, what I experienced without any preparation was an hour and a half long drive so convulsive, I'm sure the other people on the freeway took us for a bunch of head-banging metal lovers on our way to Warped Tour. If only! How I cherish the thought of spending that early morning thrashing to some band called Chronic Doom.
Instead the driver attempted to ease our brain damage by popping in a DVD of Il Divo In Concert. Now, I hope you understand the gravity of what this means. By putting on the DVD, not only were we forced to listen to the concert; we were forced to watch the concert because of the very high def TV monitors I had just praised moments earlier. With my earphones stowed in luggage under the bus, and a phone low on batteries because of the Uber I took to the bus station, I'm afraid there was simply no way to escape "the divos."
It was at this point that the panic started setting in. I had traffic as far as the eye could see, a looming flight departure, and now a classical shouting match of ABBA's "The Winner Takes It All" IN LATIN. I was on edge.
Then, as one of the tenors made, wait for it now, ANOTHER KEY CHANGE!! (this time while holding a single rose because that's just what you do), the driver pumped the breaks which once again slammed my forehead into the seat ahead of me, and... I lost it.
A loud, steady moan erupted from my soul. My face felt like it was on fire, and I was overcome by a fit of hysterical laughing in which tears secreted from both of my eye holes. I was broken. I had reached my limit. If I had any government secrets, I would have given them up right then and there for the serenity of one Colbie Callait song.
I did recover, albeit several hours later on the plane, probably a couple thousand feet above Kansas, but I was left with this awful guilt. I wasn't proud of my "brake down," but it seemed so involuntary at the time. I mean, what do you do when you reach your limit? Do you just feel bad? I wanted to because nobody else on that bus seemed to be suffering the same way I did. Who knows, maybe they like Il Divo...
Who am I kidding? That can't be possible. The real explanation must be we all have different "braking points." We all have our moments when, excuse my language, the crapper gets a little full, and you have to excuse yourself to take care of it.
When we're feeling volatile, hopefully we're mature enough to keep from hurting anyone that may wander into our line of fire. And hopefully, as we gain more experience with our limits, we can make a U turn when the brakes are a little sensitive or stuff toilet paper in our ears before it gets too late.
Most of all, I think when we have a "brake down," we need to give ourselves a break! Give it the ol' "this too shall pass," and own it. So I wasn't built for waterboarding? So what? So I get frustrated? So what?!
What I can't do is get frustrated and then hate myself for it because that's stupid, and I hate myself for that.
All in all, I'm grateful for "my brake down." It's a good story, and I love a good story. But beyond that, I'm grateful for having learned something new about myself. Good, bad, or ugly, these little pieces are what make me who I am. And who I am ain't so bad. (Or so I've heard...)
It seemed to me the responsible choice, what with morning traffic polluting the route and airport parking costing as much as bailing out your car when you park in a tow away zone. (Or so I've heard...)
Unfortunately, if LAX is an evil queen, then the bus turned out to be a poisoned apple.
It's not like the bus wasn't nice. It had tall, plush seats, high def TV monitors scattered throughout the interior, and best of all, a friendly driver at its helm WHO WANTED TO KILL ME.
Okay, I don't actually know if he wanted to kill me. And honestly, I can't even say whether or not he was an unsafe driver. All I know is on that warm California morning I may have been driven to LAX (and arrived late, by the way), but I was also driven to what I've named, "My Brake Down."
It all started because I'm pretty sure the bus had new brakes. Which, by the way, is fantastic! I'm thrilled safety would be a high priority for this company transporting my fragile body. But if that was the case, I would have appreciated a brief announcement of warning, like when tanning salons post a sign announcing their beds have brand new bulbs. (Or so I've heard...)
Unfortunately, what I experienced without any preparation was an hour and a half long drive so convulsive, I'm sure the other people on the freeway took us for a bunch of head-banging metal lovers on our way to Warped Tour. If only! How I cherish the thought of spending that early morning thrashing to some band called Chronic Doom.
Instead the driver attempted to ease our brain damage by popping in a DVD of Il Divo In Concert. Now, I hope you understand the gravity of what this means. By putting on the DVD, not only were we forced to listen to the concert; we were forced to watch the concert because of the very high def TV monitors I had just praised moments earlier. With my earphones stowed in luggage under the bus, and a phone low on batteries because of the Uber I took to the bus station, I'm afraid there was simply no way to escape "the divos."
It was at this point that the panic started setting in. I had traffic as far as the eye could see, a looming flight departure, and now a classical shouting match of ABBA's "The Winner Takes It All" IN LATIN. I was on edge.
Then, as one of the tenors made, wait for it now, ANOTHER KEY CHANGE!! (this time while holding a single rose because that's just what you do), the driver pumped the breaks which once again slammed my forehead into the seat ahead of me, and... I lost it.
A loud, steady moan erupted from my soul. My face felt like it was on fire, and I was overcome by a fit of hysterical laughing in which tears secreted from both of my eye holes. I was broken. I had reached my limit. If I had any government secrets, I would have given them up right then and there for the serenity of one Colbie Callait song.
I did recover, albeit several hours later on the plane, probably a couple thousand feet above Kansas, but I was left with this awful guilt. I wasn't proud of my "brake down," but it seemed so involuntary at the time. I mean, what do you do when you reach your limit? Do you just feel bad? I wanted to because nobody else on that bus seemed to be suffering the same way I did. Who knows, maybe they like Il Divo...
Who am I kidding? That can't be possible. The real explanation must be we all have different "braking points." We all have our moments when, excuse my language, the crapper gets a little full, and you have to excuse yourself to take care of it.
When we're feeling volatile, hopefully we're mature enough to keep from hurting anyone that may wander into our line of fire. And hopefully, as we gain more experience with our limits, we can make a U turn when the brakes are a little sensitive or stuff toilet paper in our ears before it gets too late.
Most of all, I think when we have a "brake down," we need to give ourselves a break! Give it the ol' "this too shall pass," and own it. So I wasn't built for waterboarding? So what? So I get frustrated? So what?!
What I can't do is get frustrated and then hate myself for it because that's stupid, and I hate myself for that.
All in all, I'm grateful for "my brake down." It's a good story, and I love a good story. But beyond that, I'm grateful for having learned something new about myself. Good, bad, or ugly, these little pieces are what make me who I am. And who I am ain't so bad. (Or so I've heard...)
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Tuesday, June 30, 2015
Life is a Cabaret
There are many perks to doing Musical Theatre for a living: free cardio, for example.
"Fun" is what I hear most from people. "Oh, that sounds like fun," is a common response when I mention life behind the footlights. And to their credit, those people are right. Theatre is fun! What they don't know, however, is "fun" barely cracks the Top 5.
Much higher on my list of perks are the moments you see the story you're telling onstage relate to what's happening in the world offstage. It's sometimes scary, often inspiring, and always magical. It's what we call "life imitating art," and I'm experiencing a healthy dose of it right now.
I'm currently in a production of Cabaret at the Welk Resort Theatre San Diego. Cabaret is a brilliant piece of theatre because it's a musical about WWII and the Holocaust without literally telling the story of either of those things. Instead, we tell the story of how some people made those things happen while many others let them happen.
So how does something so dark bare a striking resemblance to 2015? Well, if you had asked me two weeks ago what this year would be remembered for, I would have said "racism and hate." This week, I'm happy to say those things might only come in second.
Now believe me, I would much rather give second place to something else like Jurassic World, or, I don't know, the return of culottes. Anything, really! But the acts of hatred that keep popping up across our country are impossible to ignore.
What's really disturbing is these events are being treated more like tropical storms than what they are. As it happens, one area is devastated; the tragedy grabs the nation's attention and sympathy, but then the storm somehow disappears, leaving that community to clean up the mess and allowing us to go back to our lives until the next one falls from the sky. I'm sick of the cycle. Are we too easily distracted? Or do we choose not to see the issues at hand?
In the case of Cabaret, it's both. To me, the show is about what can happen when we're asleep in our lives. These characters demonstrate how easy it is to convince ourselves something has nothing to do with us when it's not knocking down our doors. And heaven knows there are plenty of things to distract us: greed, addiction, and maybe most terrifying, the apathy of being too comfortable.
But the common denominator between these distractions is their ultimate conclusion: When you only do something if you have to, it will always be too late.
I wish I had a good solution for the problems that currently face our nation: Get angry? Write a Facebook post? Light a candle? They all seem futile at best.
Where I find gratitude, however, is right now I get to do something. I get to be onstage in Cabaret and tell this story to an audience who will hopefully carry it with them out of the theatre and do something as well.
So Wilkommen. Bienvenue. Welcome. For better or worse, we're all in the Cabaret, and the time for action is now.
Cabaret @ Welk Resort San Diego
May 1 - July 26
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Wednesday, December 31, 2014
The Year I Was Grateful for the Homeless
The Blanket
The first interaction I ever had with someone living with homelessness happened when I was ten years old. My grandparents and I were walking through downtown Salt Lake City after seeing a touring production of The Secret Garden. (Musical Theatre Nerds, feel free to do the math...)
As we strolled back to the parking garage, I noticed a man in rags parked on the sidewalk looking around as if he were lost. To my young self, it was like seeing a tattered old blanket. Not your blanket, of course. Not the one from childhood that smells the way it did when it brought you unfathomable security. He was like someone else's blanket. One you don't have a connection to and wonder how on earth it got so dirty.
I had never seen anyone like this man before, so I stared, thinking perhaps the longer I looked the more I'd understand. Suddenly, the man jutted his arm toward me and mumbled something in an injured tone. I jumped! Did he know me? Was he trying to take me? Did he need help?
My grandparents stepped in and anonymously shook their heads at him. I was grateful. They could see I was afraid, and they took control of the situation. As we continued walking, my grandma leaned over and said in a gentle tone, "Just keep your head down. If you don't look at them, they won't talk to you."
That singular experience was essentially my philosophy on homelessness for almost 15 years. Don't get me wrong, I still volunteered at food banks; I organized food and clothing drives; I gave money to panhandlers. But even though I worked to treat my fellow beings with compassion, there was still a separation defined by the discomfort of that first encounter. "We're all human, but sometimes it's less scary to keep your head down."
The Bridge
I finally recognized that quietly hidden pathology the moment I left it behind. In my 20's, I was cast in a production of the musical Rent. Guess what I played? A homeless person.
As an actor, it's not effective to judge your character, so I didn't even think twice about playing the role. On the contrary, I was excited for the challenge. It never even occurred to me that doing so would have real life implications.
Then one day I was walking around Los Angeles and saw a woman on the streets. Immediately I thought "Oh, that's me." And that's when I realized my reaction hadn't been "Poor lady." Gone was the separation. As make believe as my acting in a musical was, it had built a bridge that connected me to this woman's experience. We were the same. From that day on, I started looking at everyone suffering from homelessness in the eye...and smiling.
9 out of 10
Fast forward to 2014, at which point I was preparing the next update for my charity website www.theroadbackhome.com. Some of you might know that besides bringing awareness to different causes and charitable organizations, we encourage the idea that everyone deserves to feel "at home" in their lives.
Well obviously with a mission statement like that, I knew at some point we'd have to tackle homelessness, but figuring out how to approach the issue on a public platform had always been intimidating.
Having no real answers as to how to proceed, this year I started talking to other people. As often as I could, I brought up homelessness in conversations to hear what others had to say. And in this very unscientific social experiment, I found that 9 out of 10 people I spoke with began their side of the conversation with doubt.
They told me about dishonest panhandlers they'd met or heard of, addicts that just want money for drugs, homeless people wearing nice watches, individuals who basically want to be homeless anyway, and so on...
Despite my empathy toward the discomfort of this issue, I was still very surprised by these findings. 9 out of 10 means the public roughly perceives 90% of the homeless population to be either completely hopeless or simply outside their social responsibilities. 90%?! That's impossible, and quite frankly, a little bit silly.
This caused me to once again look at my own views on homelessness and wonder, "How did we become so skewed?
Un-Skew You
I'm going to be brutally honest here. In our philanthropic efforts, it's a lot easier to surround ourselves with causes that lend themselves to beauty: the smile of a sick child, the beautification of a city park, the education of our youth.
But there's very little beauty in homelessness. It's one of the few nightmares in life that actually looks as bad as it feels.
And that's when it hit me. We're not all skewed, horrible people. We just want to feel better about a very ugly problem! That's why many of us convince ourselves homeless people somehow deserve their circumstances. That's why many of us selflessly give money to people on the side of the freeway exit. Unfortunately, neither of these things do anything to solve the real problem.
That's why I started the #whatishomecampaign. It was time to take a different look at how we define "home," and subsequently "homeless"
If I could sum up the incredible experience I had during this year's #whatishomecampaign, I'd break it down into three main points:
The first interaction I ever had with someone living with homelessness happened when I was ten years old. My grandparents and I were walking through downtown Salt Lake City after seeing a touring production of The Secret Garden. (Musical Theatre Nerds, feel free to do the math...)
As we strolled back to the parking garage, I noticed a man in rags parked on the sidewalk looking around as if he were lost. To my young self, it was like seeing a tattered old blanket. Not your blanket, of course. Not the one from childhood that smells the way it did when it brought you unfathomable security. He was like someone else's blanket. One you don't have a connection to and wonder how on earth it got so dirty.
I had never seen anyone like this man before, so I stared, thinking perhaps the longer I looked the more I'd understand. Suddenly, the man jutted his arm toward me and mumbled something in an injured tone. I jumped! Did he know me? Was he trying to take me? Did he need help?
My grandparents stepped in and anonymously shook their heads at him. I was grateful. They could see I was afraid, and they took control of the situation. As we continued walking, my grandma leaned over and said in a gentle tone, "Just keep your head down. If you don't look at them, they won't talk to you."
That singular experience was essentially my philosophy on homelessness for almost 15 years. Don't get me wrong, I still volunteered at food banks; I organized food and clothing drives; I gave money to panhandlers. But even though I worked to treat my fellow beings with compassion, there was still a separation defined by the discomfort of that first encounter. "We're all human, but sometimes it's less scary to keep your head down."
The Bridge
I finally recognized that quietly hidden pathology the moment I left it behind. In my 20's, I was cast in a production of the musical Rent. Guess what I played? A homeless person.
As an actor, it's not effective to judge your character, so I didn't even think twice about playing the role. On the contrary, I was excited for the challenge. It never even occurred to me that doing so would have real life implications.
Then one day I was walking around Los Angeles and saw a woman on the streets. Immediately I thought "Oh, that's me." And that's when I realized my reaction hadn't been "Poor lady." Gone was the separation. As make believe as my acting in a musical was, it had built a bridge that connected me to this woman's experience. We were the same. From that day on, I started looking at everyone suffering from homelessness in the eye...and smiling.
9 out of 10
Fast forward to 2014, at which point I was preparing the next update for my charity website www.theroadbackhome.com. Some of you might know that besides bringing awareness to different causes and charitable organizations, we encourage the idea that everyone deserves to feel "at home" in their lives.
Well obviously with a mission statement like that, I knew at some point we'd have to tackle homelessness, but figuring out how to approach the issue on a public platform had always been intimidating.
Having no real answers as to how to proceed, this year I started talking to other people. As often as I could, I brought up homelessness in conversations to hear what others had to say. And in this very unscientific social experiment, I found that 9 out of 10 people I spoke with began their side of the conversation with doubt.
They told me about dishonest panhandlers they'd met or heard of, addicts that just want money for drugs, homeless people wearing nice watches, individuals who basically want to be homeless anyway, and so on...Despite my empathy toward the discomfort of this issue, I was still very surprised by these findings. 9 out of 10 means the public roughly perceives 90% of the homeless population to be either completely hopeless or simply outside their social responsibilities. 90%?! That's impossible, and quite frankly, a little bit silly.
This caused me to once again look at my own views on homelessness and wonder, "How did we become so skewed?
Un-Skew You
I'm going to be brutally honest here. In our philanthropic efforts, it's a lot easier to surround ourselves with causes that lend themselves to beauty: the smile of a sick child, the beautification of a city park, the education of our youth.
But there's very little beauty in homelessness. It's one of the few nightmares in life that actually looks as bad as it feels.
And that's when it hit me. We're not all skewed, horrible people. We just want to feel better about a very ugly problem! That's why many of us convince ourselves homeless people somehow deserve their circumstances. That's why many of us selflessly give money to people on the side of the freeway exit. Unfortunately, neither of these things do anything to solve the real problem.
That's why I started the #whatishomecampaign. It was time to take a different look at how we define "home," and subsequently "homeless"
If I could sum up the incredible experience I had during this year's #whatishomecampaign, I'd break it down into three main points:
- Homeless people are on Facebook. Think you don't know somebody that's dealt with homelessness? Think again. How about somebody that's moved in with family members because it was their only choice? Transitional Homelessness makes up the biggest percentage of the homeless population, while "skid row" or Chronic Homelessness makes up the smallest.
- We can end Homelessness. There are fantastic organizations thinking outside the box to not only stop the growing Homeless crisis, but eradicate it altogether. Check out my favorite: Community Solutions
- Homelessness is beautiful. Sounds strange, I know, but we must find the beauty in things we truly want to change. Otherwise, the change we make is usually superficial, and only makes us feel better temporarily. The truth is Hope is found in Homelessness, therefore it's beautiful.
The New Year
This year I'm grateful for the homeless. It's a journey that started a long time ago, and I'm proud to say I'm leaving 2014 with more than just a new perspective. In many ways I feel free. I'm at peace with the discomfort I've perpetually tried to soothe since childhood. I welcome 2015 with a full tank of hope, compassion, and knowledge that with my help (and hopefully yours) things will change.
Check out the 2014 #whatishomecampaign on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and at www.theroadbackhome.com
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas Now!
Lately I've been thinking a
lot about "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas." You may have heard of it; it's a song,
kinda popular this time of year…
Anyway, I love it because it's a classic that's brave enough to be
sad. And by "sad" I mean
in an honest, subtle way, not a "manipulate you with a children's chorus
at the final key change type thing." Take a look for yourself:
Let your heart be light
Next year all our troubles will be out
of sight.
This lyric, matched by that
gorgeous melody, implies that the person being sung to isn't quite
"there" yet. The ideal
Christmas merriment hasn't taken hold because their troubles are just too big
to ignore. And you know what? It happens! Especially when we all know what our "golden days of
yore" are "supposed" to look like…
That nostalgic view of the
past, however, presents a problem.
If time marches on with us changing right alongside it, then sometimes
the expectation to recreate our Christmas joys can seem like "a
bough" much too high to reach.
What's beautiful about
"Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas," though, is that despite all
its troubles and "muddling through somehow," it still manages to
deliver a graceful message of hope.
And it does so through one word, it's final lyric: "now."
The wonder of the Holiday
Season is we don't have to wait for things to get better to enjoy it. The hope and light it's founded on are
strong enough to help us see beyond what our eyes can behold. Peace on earth may seem like a far away
dream, but decorating that same earth with colored lights reminds us it's a
glorious possibility.
So let those troubles
come. Life can be life, and
Christmas will still be Christmas.
All it takes is faith, hope, and maybe a ladder to reach that highest
bough. So, my wonderful friends,
have yourself a merry little Christmas now.
With Love to You and Your Faithful Friends
(both dear and near if the fates allow)
Jeffrey Scott Parsons
Sunday, July 20, 2014
ROMANCE ROMANCE @ North Coast Repertory Theatre
Have you ever bought JELL-O Cook & Serve Butterscotch Pudding at a local grocery store in Los Angeles?
I don't know what Angelenos have against my beloved childhood dessert, but for some reason, you have to drive all the way to Ventura County to get it. And don't tell me just to buy the instant kind. It's NOT the same. It's either Cook & Serve or forget it!
This kind of frustration is how I imagine theatre companies feel about getting people to come see their shows. Finding an audience is sometimes like looking for JELL-O Cook & Serve Butterscotch Pudding in the middle of LA. It's not easy.
Interestingly enough, the same can't be said for Cook & Serve Chocolate and Vanilla Puddings. They're all over the place! Of course I'm sure it's a simple supply and demand issue. It's the same reason larger theatres have to produce Oklahoma, The Music Man, and Annie every few years or so to bring in the crowds.
That's why when I heard North Coast Repertory Theatre was doing a very "Butterscotch" production of the little known and even less seen musical Romance Romance, I was immediately interested.
There is something so satisfying to me about presenting a piece of musical theatre that audiences don't already know forwards and backwards.
In fact, it's a real test for modern day audiences to hear a musical for the first time in the theatre-- to truly listen to the melodies and lyrics, and allow themselves to go on a journey with the characters without the benefits of nostalgia and prior exposure. It's a test, I'm afraid to say, not all audiences are willing to take.
I don't mean to sound ungrateful. I admire and respect everyone that supports local theatre. They are the benefactors and cultivators of their own culture.
But while it may be risky for a theatre to produce a show that's not well known, it has grown ever apparent to me that it's even riskier for audiences to watch it. After all, isn't it a safer bet to go see a musical you've already seen or heard? Well that's why I want you to come see our little show.
The truth is Romance Romance might not be your favorite thing you've ever seen. But the greater truth is every show doesn't have to be "your favorite thing you've ever seen." Setting that kind of expectation prohibits us from taking art in for what it is, and instead, encourages us to only see what it's not. I can already tell you Romance Romance isn't going to be The Music Man simply because it's not The Music Man! What it is, however, is a show that might make you 'hum,' a show that might make you smile, and a show that might make you think. It's a proposition that forces you into new, unknown territory, and I'm really proud to be a part of it with three other actors I love dearly.
So regardless of whether or not you prefer Chocolate to Butterscotch, wouldn't you still rather have the choice? :)
Interestingly enough, the same can't be said for Cook & Serve Chocolate and Vanilla Puddings. They're all over the place! Of course I'm sure it's a simple supply and demand issue. It's the same reason larger theatres have to produce Oklahoma, The Music Man, and Annie every few years or so to bring in the crowds.
That's why when I heard North Coast Repertory Theatre was doing a very "Butterscotch" production of the little known and even less seen musical Romance Romance, I was immediately interested.
There is something so satisfying to me about presenting a piece of musical theatre that audiences don't already know forwards and backwards.
In fact, it's a real test for modern day audiences to hear a musical for the first time in the theatre-- to truly listen to the melodies and lyrics, and allow themselves to go on a journey with the characters without the benefits of nostalgia and prior exposure. It's a test, I'm afraid to say, not all audiences are willing to take.
I don't mean to sound ungrateful. I admire and respect everyone that supports local theatre. They are the benefactors and cultivators of their own culture.
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| Romance Romance starring (l to r) Melissa WolfKlain, Lance Arthur Smith, Jill Townsend, and Jeffrey Scott Parsons |
The truth is Romance Romance might not be your favorite thing you've ever seen. But the greater truth is every show doesn't have to be "your favorite thing you've ever seen." Setting that kind of expectation prohibits us from taking art in for what it is, and instead, encourages us to only see what it's not. I can already tell you Romance Romance isn't going to be The Music Man simply because it's not The Music Man! What it is, however, is a show that might make you 'hum,' a show that might make you smile, and a show that might make you think. It's a proposition that forces you into new, unknown territory, and I'm really proud to be a part of it with three other actors I love dearly.
So regardless of whether or not you prefer Chocolate to Butterscotch, wouldn't you still rather have the choice? :)
Come see the frothy and fun
Romance Romance at North Coast Rep
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Monday, May 26, 2014
Leave Your Mark
A week or so ago, I packed up a rental car with some clothes, a fully loaded iPod, and a box of Claritin, and I drove to my motherland... also known as my mother's house in Utah.
It had been a few years since I'd visited the old Beehive State. It'd been even longer since I'd been there without snow- which is why I brought the Claritin. For the first time in at least five years, I toured our old farm property, side stepping cow pies and trying to remember how the irrigation system worked.
But while walking past one of my grandpa's old sheds, I suddenly got memory smacked. I knelt down and cleared away the dirt to see if my memory was accurate, and sure enough...
As it turns out, I don't need to write my name in the cement at Grauman's Chinese Theatre. I'm a farm boy, so that's already been taken care of.
Thanks Gramps.
It had been a few years since I'd visited the old Beehive State. It'd been even longer since I'd been there without snow- which is why I brought the Claritin. For the first time in at least five years, I toured our old farm property, side stepping cow pies and trying to remember how the irrigation system worked.
But while walking past one of my grandpa's old sheds, I suddenly got memory smacked. I knelt down and cleared away the dirt to see if my memory was accurate, and sure enough...
When I was little, my grandpa, cousin, brother, and I poured this cement that helped, among other things, to keep rodents from tunneling into the shed. As partial payment, and in keeping with tradition, Grandpa wrote our names in the cement before it dried. I always felt like such a celebrity when he did that. Seeing my name immortalized in a batch of quick dry satisfied some deep desire I had to be like the stars that kinda did the same thing in Hollywood.
It's funny, though, seeing the memories of your past through the eyes of an adult. Looking down at my name in that cement, I wasn't seeing a childhood thrill anymore. Instead, I was seeing an extension of everything around me.
That farm! Its fences and sheds, the gate systems, everything down to its very foundation was planted by the hands of those that came before me. People who, alive and not, are still around when I see their handiwork. What surprised me, though, was when I saw my own name in the cement, I realized I'm still around there too.
Even though my grandpa is gone, he is still all over that farm. And as an adult now striving in my own way to leave something of worth to this world, I feel like we met that day. I finally realized what he was teaching me. With the precious time we have on Earth, together we can leave our mark. Surely every life is important enough to leave this place a little better than we found it.
As it turns out, I don't need to write my name in the cement at Grauman's Chinese Theatre. I'm a farm boy, so that's already been taken care of.Thanks Gramps.
Saturday, March 22, 2014
CATS at San Diego Musical Theatre
If you had asked me three months ago to vote for the musical most unlikely to appear on my resume, I would have said Cats. It's true. I would have pictured myself playing Effie White in Dreamgirls before wearing a kitty unitard.
It's not because I don't like Cats. I remember seeing it with my family when I was in the 5th grade. I don't recall a lot of details from that production, partially because I had failed to bring my new prescription eyewear, and I spent most of the evening stealing my Mom's off her head. I apparently enjoyed myself, though, because I convinced my dad to buy me a Cats t-shirt as well as the double cassette cast album.
I listened to those cassettes a lot in my basement, re-imagining the cat choreography. I learned very quickly, though, that a lot of theatre people didn't like the show. I didn't understand why. It was just about cats. Many criticized it for the lack of plot, but I always figured that had more to do with their expectations of what they thought the show should be, rather than what it was.Ten years later, however, I too began rolling my eyes when Cats was still on Broadway, and some of my favorite shows couldn't stay open long enough for me to see them. Those eye rolls continued a few years later when I managed to see three different productions of Cats in the space of six months. (Thank you working theatre friends.) By that point, I had decided I probably would never do the show.
Was I developing a Cats allergy? No. Simply put, I had weighed the pros and cons, and the whole thing looked like too much work! The makeup, the wigs, the movement that makes your joints quiver with fear... It just didn't seem worth it!
So spoiler alert, I'm doing a production of Cats. How? Well, I went to an audition, and much to my surprise, I had a lot of fun.There is a specificity to this show that is very addicting. At first it's daunting to look at yourself in a mirror and think, "So... I'm a cat? I guess I'm a cat." But then the music, the choreography, the ensemble nature of the show really begins to "cat-ivate" you, and before you know it, you're immersed. Believe me, no one is more surprised than this guy.
But that's not all. To me, Cats isn't just about cats anymore. And of course it's not! T.S. Eliot was a pretty intelligent man. When we look closely, his poems that make up the material for the musical carry a lot of themes.In "The Naming of Cats," we learn that a cat must have three different names: one that the family uses, one that the cats call each other, and a third that nobody knows except for the cat that bears it.
"If you notice a cat in profound meditation, the answer I tell you is always the same. Their mind is caught up in the rapt contemplation of the thought of the thought of the thought of his name."
What better way to teach the sacred nature of honoring who you truly are than through this creature that is infamously both lovable and fiercely independent? Cats aren't needy because they don't like you, Eliot teaches us, rather they don't need your validation to know who they are.
I think it's this moment in the show that we can start learning from Cats. And if we can learn from the kitties, then we can start to see ourselves in them, too.
So come out and see Cats at San Diego Musical Theatre! Here's hoping it will be a "Memory" that will have at least nine lives...
CATS at San Diego Musical Theatre
March 22nd - April 6th
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Building Zion & Singing Sondheim
There are a few things I accomplished during my college years that to this day I'm really proud of: #1- graduating. #2- performing Eugene O'Neil. #3- not killing anyone. Another of those choice accomplishments was a paper I wrote for my Musical Theatre History class.
This required paper was to be turned in at the end of the semester. I was to pick a relevant musical theatre topic and write about it for as long as I could. In other words, it was a dream come true!
As a student at BYU, I decided to write academically about something that wouldn't and couldn't be written on any other campus in America. I titled my paper, "You Can Build Zion and Still Sing Sondheim: 3 Musicals That Would Never Be Performed at BYU But Still Teach Gospel Principles."
Reading back through this paper, I think I was a little harsh on my alma mater. Nevertheless, it was true to how I was feeling at the time.
I was upset because I felt that, as a student at a religious university like BYU, I was constantly compelled to apologize for everything I did, beginning with wanting a career as a performer in the first place. I sensed a degree of illegitimacy towards our field of study, as if musical theatre didn't deserve to be part of the academic institution. And if that wasn't enough, the opportunities to prove otherwise, through performing the more complex literature of the art form, were often impossible due to codes and standards of the school and church.
Looking back now, I see that when I wrote my paper, I wasn't upset at BYU as much as I was just passionate about art, or more specifically, what I had learned about it. I'd realized that when art is a reflection of reality, truth will always be found in the details, regardless of whether or not those reflections follow the commandments of God. This principle is why I'm still proud of my paper from all those years ago.
It's a principle that I think we as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints are reminded time and time again even if we choose not to notice. Take The Book of Mormon, for example. (The actual book, not the musical.) The Fourth Book of Nephi, found in The Book of Mormon, is comprised of only one chapter. That chapter is broken down into 49 verses, and of those verses, the first 22 account the formation of a pure society of Zion in the ancient Americas following the Savior's visitation around 34 A.D. The final 28 record the destruction of that same society due to the choices of the people.
So, for those keeping track, that's 22 verses about everything being perfect, and 28 about it not, proving that perhaps we can find just as much truth and light in the representation of imperfect realities as we can in the more unrelatable ideals. Maybe even a little more...
The Dark and Hungry God
Take Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street as an example. With a score and lyrics by Stephen Sondheim, it's quite possibly the darkest story to ever be musicalized. That is, of course, unless you can think of a story more upsetting than a vengeful barber slitting throats to avenge his past, and then grinding them up for meat pies.
Sondheim has always had a knack for stretching the musical theatre art form to new territory, but what sets him apart is that his musicals are often so experimental AND masterful. It's no small feat. It's also no stretch of the imagination to foresee the kind of reluctance a more conservative audience would have to warmly welcome this bloody masterpiece. Why would anyone striving to live the Christ-like attributes of love and forgiveness subject themselves to witness the horror of Sweeney Todd? The same could be asked of a more familiar character.
In the Old Testament of the Bible, we meet David, from "David and Goliath" fame. This meek and faithful shepherd boy found himself admired by an entire nation, and soon, became ruler over it. A life of such potential, however, was never fulfilled. Before he knew it, King David fell "from his exaltation," loving power more than life, and committing both adultery and murder. When we read how easily a man, like David, in all his righteousness was still capable of such acts, we, ourselves, become more wary of our own pitfalls.
Such is the case with Sweeney Todd. The true terror of this musical does not lie in its gratuitous bloodshed, but in the question that if we were faced with Sweeney's unjust circumstances, would we lose ourselves in a similar demise?
This musical asks its audience, just like the scriptures of old, "What god are you serving?" In Sweeney's case, Sondheim tells us it was "a dark and a vengeful god." Likewise, if our answer is revenge or greed, then we, like Mr Todd, will find that it only grows more powerful through our own emulation. "The more he bleeds, the more he lives. He never forgets and he never forgives."
What Sweeney learned too late was the power he wanted to heal his wounds wasn't found in creating more of them.
Get a Gimmick, Not a Child
In 1995, LDS General Authorities released a single-paged proclamation that has since become a staple of Mormon doctrine. Among other things, it declares the importance "to maintain and strengthen the family as the fundamental unit of society."
So why this "Proclamation to the World?" I'll answer that in two words: Mama Rose.
Gypsy is a musical with lyrics by Stephen Sondheim that tells the story of Gypsy Rose Lee, a famous burlesque stripper from the 1920s and 30s. While she is the show's namesake, it is her infamous stage mother, Rose, that has become one of the most formidable characters to ever grace the stage.
"I had a dream," Rose sings early in the show. Right away, Sondheim lets us know that the dream to get her children into show business is her dream, and possibly, one that was born out of being abandoned by her mother as a child and left to an emotionally unattached father.
As the musical continues, Rose is abandoned yet again, this time by her own child, June, and Mama Rose rebounds by pushing the shy Louise into the spotlight. Louise struggles to find her place in the loud, confrontational world of entertainment until one night, out of desperation, Rose forces the now older Louise into stripping at a dumpy burlesque house. Louise becomes Gypsy Rose Lee, the "classy" stripper, and with new found confidence stands up to her overbearing mother once and for all.
I still remember my own mother's look of disappointment upon realizing the show that gave birth to "Everything's Comin' Up Roses" was about a mother who forces her daughter to take off her clothes. I maintain, however, that Gypsy holds an essential message for all Latter day Saint families.
The ingenious title of this musical, "Gypsy," is not only Louise's future name-to-fame, but also makes an intriguing commentary on Rose's life. She, like a nomadic gypsy, has no home. Instead she weathers life's scars by relying on dreams to raise her children. She assumes that her own insecurities about life will be best conquered if she can give her children all she ever wanted. What she doesn't realize is her children don't want it.
Thus we see a vicious familial cycle in Gypsy. Rose was left with a void as a child. As an adult, she seeks to fill it with public attention, all the while withholding personal affection from her own daughters. They, in turn, run away to the public to make up for it. They're surprised to have followed their mother's and grandmother's footsteps, and Rose is surprised to end up alone.
In a culture that promotes family as the fundamental unit of society, Gypsy provides an important warning. Family is not a gimmick. Regardless of societal pressures, rearing a noble family should only proceed when the parents recognize the responsibility of creating new life. If children are only meant to complete a portrait, fill a void, or be in show business, the consequences echo for generations to come.
Is This What You Call Love?
The house lights dim, the orchestra swells, and the curtain rises to reveal a bed filled by two lovers recovering from their latest round of love-making. One of them is married, but not to the other. The first five minutes of Stephen Sondheim's Passion are probably why I thought a BYU production was highly unlikely.
The script follows Georgio, a young, romantic soldier in love with the beautiful, but married, Clara. When Georgio is reassigned to a smaller post, he meets his Captain's cousin, Fosca, an ugly woman depressed by her constant state of illness and pain. Showing compassion, Georgio is kind to her, and Fosca is immediately smitten.
As Fosca's desire to gain Georgio's love turns to despair, Clara continues in her adulterous affair with him until she suddenly ends it. Georgio is devastated and recognizes how shallow Clara's love has been. He likewise recognizes the unbridled love that Fosca has, and it changes him forever. This show doesn't have a traditionally happy ending, but it deals with love in a way never before explored in a musical, and led me to one of the great spiritual awakenings I've ever had.
The ancient prophet Isaiah said of Jesus Christ's initial coming, "He hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him." In the same way, Fosca, has no great aesthetic to her form. Rather, her beauty lives in her vulnerability.
"Loving you is not a choice; it's who I am," she declares to Georgio. "It gives me purpose, gives me voice to say to the world: This is why I live. You are why I live." This woman's heart is wide open, and yet she confesses that standing in that terrifyingly exposed place is why she lives. She, who spends the entire show struggling to find the will to live beyond her illness finds the motivation to do so through love.
This is what lead me to my great epiphany: Love always leads to life!
The physical expression of making love, for example, creates life. Emotionally speaking, feeling loved can bring us back to life when all seems lost. Then think about the scripture, "for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son..."
I've often struggled to comprehend how and why Jesus Christ could suffer so in the Garden of Gethsemane, and later, at Calvary, only to then resurrect three days later. In the past, I've simply regarded it as some godly power I couldn't understand. But if love really leads to life, then perfect love (like that of a deity) contains the power over life, that is, to lay it down and take it up again.
I believe the divine power held by Jesus Christ to conquer death stems directly from the perfect and infinite love he held for every living thing. No wonder his mission has often been called "the passion." Like Fosca's journey, it was selfless and, ultimately, transformative.
Conclusion
To be fair, I do understand. From movies to music to musicals, our world seems to be full of "challenging material." But that's because the world we live in is one ruled by contrast. Our desire for peace is stronger during times of war. Our need for love is more fervent in times of sorrow. The lessons of humility are gained among consequences of selfishness. Does it have to be that way? No. But since repentance is a divine principle, it's definitely expected.
The three musicals above are additional testaments to that principle of contrast. In fact, they're a safer route to the same conclusion. There's nothing that says wisdom can't be earned by witnessing someone else's choices. So why not spend an evening with Sweeney Todd, or Momma Rose, or Georgio? They can provide us with a greater understanding of the the complexities of reality, which in turn, make the faithful stronger, but only if Christ is their reality.
Now I'm not saying that all artistic expressions are made with the singular goal of helping me think about Jesus. In fact, I'm sure Mr Sondheim might find it rather amusing that this is what I've taken from his works. But the point, my friends, brothers, and sisters, is while we often put a lot of energy on deciding what to support, we also need to be careful of what we avoid. If we don't take advantage of that which teaches, we are not using art as God intended. We'll just be reading the first 22 verses of The Fourth Book of Nephi.
And as far as the argument that "it's just a musical," I'll remind you that Jesus Christ himself taught through theatre. He told stories; he used props, and he had a lot of special effects.
So go ahead: sing Sondheim and build Zion! And when that finally leads to the first stake production of A Little Night Music, be sure to invite me to audition. I'd love to play Henrik.
"For Goooooooooooosh Sake."
This required paper was to be turned in at the end of the semester. I was to pick a relevant musical theatre topic and write about it for as long as I could. In other words, it was a dream come true!
As a student at BYU, I decided to write academically about something that wouldn't and couldn't be written on any other campus in America. I titled my paper, "You Can Build Zion and Still Sing Sondheim: 3 Musicals That Would Never Be Performed at BYU But Still Teach Gospel Principles."
Reading back through this paper, I think I was a little harsh on my alma mater. Nevertheless, it was true to how I was feeling at the time.
I was upset because I felt that, as a student at a religious university like BYU, I was constantly compelled to apologize for everything I did, beginning with wanting a career as a performer in the first place. I sensed a degree of illegitimacy towards our field of study, as if musical theatre didn't deserve to be part of the academic institution. And if that wasn't enough, the opportunities to prove otherwise, through performing the more complex literature of the art form, were often impossible due to codes and standards of the school and church.
Looking back now, I see that when I wrote my paper, I wasn't upset at BYU as much as I was just passionate about art, or more specifically, what I had learned about it. I'd realized that when art is a reflection of reality, truth will always be found in the details, regardless of whether or not those reflections follow the commandments of God. This principle is why I'm still proud of my paper from all those years ago.
It's a principle that I think we as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints are reminded time and time again even if we choose not to notice. Take The Book of Mormon, for example. (The actual book, not the musical.) The Fourth Book of Nephi, found in The Book of Mormon, is comprised of only one chapter. That chapter is broken down into 49 verses, and of those verses, the first 22 account the formation of a pure society of Zion in the ancient Americas following the Savior's visitation around 34 A.D. The final 28 record the destruction of that same society due to the choices of the people.
So, for those keeping track, that's 22 verses about everything being perfect, and 28 about it not, proving that perhaps we can find just as much truth and light in the representation of imperfect realities as we can in the more unrelatable ideals. Maybe even a little more...
The Dark and Hungry God
Take Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street as an example. With a score and lyrics by Stephen Sondheim, it's quite possibly the darkest story to ever be musicalized. That is, of course, unless you can think of a story more upsetting than a vengeful barber slitting throats to avenge his past, and then grinding them up for meat pies.
Sondheim has always had a knack for stretching the musical theatre art form to new territory, but what sets him apart is that his musicals are often so experimental AND masterful. It's no small feat. It's also no stretch of the imagination to foresee the kind of reluctance a more conservative audience would have to warmly welcome this bloody masterpiece. Why would anyone striving to live the Christ-like attributes of love and forgiveness subject themselves to witness the horror of Sweeney Todd? The same could be asked of a more familiar character.
In the Old Testament of the Bible, we meet David, from "David and Goliath" fame. This meek and faithful shepherd boy found himself admired by an entire nation, and soon, became ruler over it. A life of such potential, however, was never fulfilled. Before he knew it, King David fell "from his exaltation," loving power more than life, and committing both adultery and murder. When we read how easily a man, like David, in all his righteousness was still capable of such acts, we, ourselves, become more wary of our own pitfalls.
Such is the case with Sweeney Todd. The true terror of this musical does not lie in its gratuitous bloodshed, but in the question that if we were faced with Sweeney's unjust circumstances, would we lose ourselves in a similar demise?
This musical asks its audience, just like the scriptures of old, "What god are you serving?" In Sweeney's case, Sondheim tells us it was "a dark and a vengeful god." Likewise, if our answer is revenge or greed, then we, like Mr Todd, will find that it only grows more powerful through our own emulation. "The more he bleeds, the more he lives. He never forgets and he never forgives."
What Sweeney learned too late was the power he wanted to heal his wounds wasn't found in creating more of them.
Get a Gimmick, Not a Child
In 1995, LDS General Authorities released a single-paged proclamation that has since become a staple of Mormon doctrine. Among other things, it declares the importance "to maintain and strengthen the family as the fundamental unit of society."
So why this "Proclamation to the World?" I'll answer that in two words: Mama Rose.
Gypsy is a musical with lyrics by Stephen Sondheim that tells the story of Gypsy Rose Lee, a famous burlesque stripper from the 1920s and 30s. While she is the show's namesake, it is her infamous stage mother, Rose, that has become one of the most formidable characters to ever grace the stage.
"I had a dream," Rose sings early in the show. Right away, Sondheim lets us know that the dream to get her children into show business is her dream, and possibly, one that was born out of being abandoned by her mother as a child and left to an emotionally unattached father.
As the musical continues, Rose is abandoned yet again, this time by her own child, June, and Mama Rose rebounds by pushing the shy Louise into the spotlight. Louise struggles to find her place in the loud, confrontational world of entertainment until one night, out of desperation, Rose forces the now older Louise into stripping at a dumpy burlesque house. Louise becomes Gypsy Rose Lee, the "classy" stripper, and with new found confidence stands up to her overbearing mother once and for all.
I still remember my own mother's look of disappointment upon realizing the show that gave birth to "Everything's Comin' Up Roses" was about a mother who forces her daughter to take off her clothes. I maintain, however, that Gypsy holds an essential message for all Latter day Saint families.
The ingenious title of this musical, "Gypsy," is not only Louise's future name-to-fame, but also makes an intriguing commentary on Rose's life. She, like a nomadic gypsy, has no home. Instead she weathers life's scars by relying on dreams to raise her children. She assumes that her own insecurities about life will be best conquered if she can give her children all she ever wanted. What she doesn't realize is her children don't want it.
Thus we see a vicious familial cycle in Gypsy. Rose was left with a void as a child. As an adult, she seeks to fill it with public attention, all the while withholding personal affection from her own daughters. They, in turn, run away to the public to make up for it. They're surprised to have followed their mother's and grandmother's footsteps, and Rose is surprised to end up alone.
In a culture that promotes family as the fundamental unit of society, Gypsy provides an important warning. Family is not a gimmick. Regardless of societal pressures, rearing a noble family should only proceed when the parents recognize the responsibility of creating new life. If children are only meant to complete a portrait, fill a void, or be in show business, the consequences echo for generations to come.
Is This What You Call Love?
The house lights dim, the orchestra swells, and the curtain rises to reveal a bed filled by two lovers recovering from their latest round of love-making. One of them is married, but not to the other. The first five minutes of Stephen Sondheim's Passion are probably why I thought a BYU production was highly unlikely.
The script follows Georgio, a young, romantic soldier in love with the beautiful, but married, Clara. When Georgio is reassigned to a smaller post, he meets his Captain's cousin, Fosca, an ugly woman depressed by her constant state of illness and pain. Showing compassion, Georgio is kind to her, and Fosca is immediately smitten.
As Fosca's desire to gain Georgio's love turns to despair, Clara continues in her adulterous affair with him until she suddenly ends it. Georgio is devastated and recognizes how shallow Clara's love has been. He likewise recognizes the unbridled love that Fosca has, and it changes him forever. This show doesn't have a traditionally happy ending, but it deals with love in a way never before explored in a musical, and led me to one of the great spiritual awakenings I've ever had.
The ancient prophet Isaiah said of Jesus Christ's initial coming, "He hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him." In the same way, Fosca, has no great aesthetic to her form. Rather, her beauty lives in her vulnerability.
"Loving you is not a choice; it's who I am," she declares to Georgio. "It gives me purpose, gives me voice to say to the world: This is why I live. You are why I live." This woman's heart is wide open, and yet she confesses that standing in that terrifyingly exposed place is why she lives. She, who spends the entire show struggling to find the will to live beyond her illness finds the motivation to do so through love.
This is what lead me to my great epiphany: Love always leads to life!
The physical expression of making love, for example, creates life. Emotionally speaking, feeling loved can bring us back to life when all seems lost. Then think about the scripture, "for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son..."
I've often struggled to comprehend how and why Jesus Christ could suffer so in the Garden of Gethsemane, and later, at Calvary, only to then resurrect three days later. In the past, I've simply regarded it as some godly power I couldn't understand. But if love really leads to life, then perfect love (like that of a deity) contains the power over life, that is, to lay it down and take it up again.
I believe the divine power held by Jesus Christ to conquer death stems directly from the perfect and infinite love he held for every living thing. No wonder his mission has often been called "the passion." Like Fosca's journey, it was selfless and, ultimately, transformative.
Conclusion
The three musicals above are additional testaments to that principle of contrast. In fact, they're a safer route to the same conclusion. There's nothing that says wisdom can't be earned by witnessing someone else's choices. So why not spend an evening with Sweeney Todd, or Momma Rose, or Georgio? They can provide us with a greater understanding of the the complexities of reality, which in turn, make the faithful stronger, but only if Christ is their reality.
Now I'm not saying that all artistic expressions are made with the singular goal of helping me think about Jesus. In fact, I'm sure Mr Sondheim might find it rather amusing that this is what I've taken from his works. But the point, my friends, brothers, and sisters, is while we often put a lot of energy on deciding what to support, we also need to be careful of what we avoid. If we don't take advantage of that which teaches, we are not using art as God intended. We'll just be reading the first 22 verses of The Fourth Book of Nephi.
And as far as the argument that "it's just a musical," I'll remind you that Jesus Christ himself taught through theatre. He told stories; he used props, and he had a lot of special effects.
So go ahead: sing Sondheim and build Zion! And when that finally leads to the first stake production of A Little Night Music, be sure to invite me to audition. I'd love to play Henrik.
"For Goooooooooooosh Sake."
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
FOREVER PLAID at Cabrillo Music Theatre
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| Roger Befeler, Kurtis Simmons, Me, and Scott Dreier in Forever Plaid at Cabrillo Music Theatre. |
I was already scheduled to spend the holidays that year performing in The 2010 Cabrillo Holiday Spectactular starring Shirley Jones, and who wouldn't be perfectly content spending their Christmas with Momma Partridge and Marian the Librarian?! Cue Kevin's phone call...
He told me he was putting together a mini tour of Plaid Tidings, the holiday version of the now classic Forever Plaid. I had previously learned two of the four roles in that show, and he asked if I'd be willing to learn the role of Sparky this time around.
Since it's almost impossible for me to say "no" to work, I took the offer very seriously. I sat down with my calendar to see if I could somehow pull off Plaid AND The Holiday Spectacular at the same time. As it turned out, the few Plaid rehearsals would be done before the other show even started, and the mini tour dates were on Fridays, which just so happened to be my days off during The Holiday Spectacular rehearsals. It would be hectic, but it was absolutely possible.
I started learning as much of "Sparky" as I could by myself since the other three Plaids had all done their roles in previous productions of Plaid Tidings. I eventually felt prepared enough to show up to our first rehearsal at the director's house right before Thanksgiving. I knocked on the door and was immediately greeted by Kevin, who answered wearing an apron. The house smelled wonderful, filled with a sweet and spicy aroma of slow cooked meat. Kevin asked if I would like some wine. I politely declined. Then we started rehearsal.
| David Humphrey, David Engle, Me, and Stan Chandler in Plaid Tidings, with Kevin Traxler behind the scenes, as always, taking the picture. |
Every know and then we'd hear Kevin holler from the kitchen, "Sounds great!"
After about two hours of rehearsing, Kevin suddenly came into the living room and announced it was time to eat. We all went outside into a beautiful Southern California evening and took our seats at a table lit with candles and filled with gourmet worthy entrees. Along with Kevin and his wife, we ate and laughed hysterically at each others' stories from previous Plaid-encounters. I truly felt part of the family.
That night was pretty much the only rehearsal I ever got for Plaid Tidings. The day before our first performance, we reviewed, this time in front of a mirror, and though I felt safe, I was terrified I'd mess things up. Kevin wasn't.
The subsequent mini tour of Plaid Tidings turned out a lot of memories: The show in Palm Desert where two old ladies said we talk too much, despite the 20 something songs we had just sung. The time in New Mexico where our van got stopped at Immigration because our piano player had an English accent. The show in Arizona where the bass player and I had to drive to the airport in the middle of the night to get back to rehearse The Holiday Spectacular. I wouldn't have had it any other way.
Last year, towards the end of 2013, I was happy enough to get another phone call from Kevin Traxler. This time it was to do Sparky in a production of Forever Plaid that he was producing, funny enough, at Cabrillo Music Theatre, where I had sashayed with Shirley Jones all those years before. The offer was a no brainer. I accepted immediately. I couldn't wait to have a family reunion.
Then, about a month before we were to begin rehearsals, I learned that Kevin passed away. As Sparky says in Forever Plaid, "Funny thing...death."
It's strange, preparing this delicious experience of a show without Kevin around to season it. It's even stranger to be doing a show about mortality while knowing the person who brought you there to do it isn't here anymore. But I love being a Plaid. And I'm proud to be a Plaid. And I know I wouldn't feel that way without having known and loved Kevin Traxler.
So this one's for him, and I sincerely hope you will all come and enjoy our show. That is, after all, exactly what Kevin would've wanted.
Forever Plaid at Cabrillo Music Theatre Jan 31-Feb 9
Saturday, December 7, 2013
WHITE CHRISTMAS at San Diego Musical Theatre
This month I'm returning to the role of Phil Davis in the big, beautiful holiday musical White Christmas. I love this show. Every time I do it, I get to know it all over again, and that usually looks something like this:
Right before the rehearsal process begins, I take a nice, deep breath and think, "This is going to be a cute show."
Then I get into rehearsals, start stressing out about the six minute dance numbers and complain, "This is a big freakin' show!"
Then we have opening night. I see the audience living in the nostalgia they have with this material and finally remember, "This is a really beautiful show."
White Christmas has the right combination of cheese and heart to melt even the chilliest of Scrooges, so come and see us if you're in the San Diego area December 13-22.
And Merry Christmas! May it be filled with family, laughter, and love.
And while we're at it, may it be a white one, too. :)
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